I wrote this for you.
For the last few years, I’ve woke up every morning with the feeling of dread. On most days, I didn’t want to get up. I didn’t feel like I was living; I was simply trying to survive, one day at a time.
It must be hard to understand someone who doesn’t understand herself. Someone who is still trying to figure out what the words “depression” and “anxiety” and anorexia mean.
It must be hard to care for someone who wanted to stay in the dark, even when she needed to be in the light.
You make an effort to understand how I am feeling and how you can help me feel better.
You continue to put up with me, and my many irrational fears, with incredible amounts of patience.
You believe in me, even when I don’t believe in myself. I don’t give up on the hardest days because I remember you telling me you are all proud of me and how far I have come; I don’t want to leave people disappointed. As you say I’ve got through the toughest days.
Thank you for pouring your love and care into me, both tender and tough, every day, but especially on the days I need it the most.
Thank you for giving me your time, whether it is spent sitting in silence in your office or pouring my heart out in the worst phrases you’ve ever heard. You are always there, even when I cannot stop talking from being excited or am crying so hard that I can’t breathe.
Thank you for allowing work to be safe haven, for I have never felt alone or unsafe in your or anyone else’s presence. I don’t know if you realize the important role you played and are still playing in my recovery process, but I hope this at least gives you an idea.
I feel as if I don’t say this enough, but thank you. Thank you for being there for me no matter what was going on. Thank you for motivating me when I am weak and feel like giving up. Mostly, thank you for believing in me when others lost hope.
You have showed me life was worth living: Thank you. Thank you for showing me my life has value and that I am important. Thank you for helping me learn what it feels like to be happy for the first time in forever and what it feels like to be wanted. Thank you for giving me a reason to wake up each morning with a smile on my face. Thank you for being there when I was at my weakest point I have ever been. I can’t thank you enough for never leaving me when things got really tough. Work has really really helped me come out of my shell – I know my confidence isn’t the best but I truly believe we will get there. Hopefully you will all stick around for part two.
Rather than telling me what I can’t accomplish, you believe in me and encourage me to keep going and to follow my dreams even if they may seem far-fetched. You have helped show me all the positives life has to offer and a whole new perspective on the world. I am no longer afraid to trust people nor myself. I now realize that not everyone who enters my life will leave.
I know that I’m good at my job, and I know you’ll tell me it till you’re blue in the face.
So from now on I’ll make it my pledge to believe you all.
I will never ever let you guys down. I’ve never been as happy as I am right now. I’m so glad I’ve met my “match” (work) 😉
Next stop – I wont give in. I won’t stop until I get there. I’ve never had so much dedication and motivation in my life.